What do I have to be unhappy about? The truth is, I wish I knew. I wish I could tell you but right now, it seems impossible. There is no reason, I mean, I am sure, there probably, maybe, is, but then again, maybe not. I do not feel myself, I feel off, distant and I guess, sad. Continue reading “Oh no, it’s international day of happiness & I am not happy.”
So, next week I turn twenty-five and as I am sure most twenty-five year olds will agree, this comes with many feelings, or perhaps this is just me? The ‘this is not where I should be’, ‘what have I accomplished?’, ‘who am I?’. The usual ‘could have, should have, would have’.. so, in a slightly, dramatic attempt to make myself feel better, here is a list of twenty-five things that I have learnt in twenty-five years. Kind of, almost, talking to myself in this post, a younger self, who thought she had it all planned out. Paths change. I may not be where I dreamt of being but I am here and I have learnt somethings along my way.
Starting with a few from my five year old self, you are scared of clowns, snow-white will not always be you favourite princess and flower crowns will always be fashionable.
Today, I am going to be telling you all about my favourite local, coffee stops. So if you are ever in the North East Wales area and are in need of a coffee, here is your guide. I feel there is something very special about finding somewhere local, somewhere that gives you the feeling of being ‘your place’, almost a little secret or comfort in someway.
Besides being local, I adore popping somewhere for coffee, to have a few moments to myself, to be mindful and to watch the world pass by, if only for a few moments. As well as a comforting, warm drink, it gives me a few moments to hideaway from the hustle and bustle of the busy days.
So another not so usual post of mine and I guess one a little more ‘journal’ style, more relaxed, less specific and I guess just me and a few of my thoughts on well, being me, a twenty-five year old, old lady.
If you have been following me for a while, you will know just how much I love March, but with the stormy, cold weather it has been difficult to feel all things March. Whilst trying to remain present and enjoy what I can enjoy, I seem to have taken to journalling (again). It seems a while since I last wrote like this, just a day to day kind of post.
The day the snow cleared, brought me such a good feeling, finally free from at least one layer of clothing and able to drive without overwhelming anxiety, yes! I went to the beauticians in the morning, my eyebrows needed taming, before popping to the post office. I find there is something so therapeutic about wrapping up a little parcel and seeing it being stamped, typed and posted, is this just me?
That evening, I went to Pizza Express with a friend. It was lovely to catch up, I usually have the gluten-free, vegan pizza but I decided to try their ‘superfood salad’ and it was lovely, it made a nice change.
A few days later, I came down with a stomach bug or possible ‘flare up’, which knocked me about for a couple of days but I did not let it stop me from going to London for the last ever Time to Change young champions training (cries). See full post for more on that.
Mother’s Day fell on a strange day for me this year, again see a different, and most lengthy, post for more on that too. Non the less it was a day I felt truly grateful for my mum, not that a day goes by where I do not. I love my mum so very much and I know a lot of people do not agree with Mother’s Day but if it means I can spoil her and make her feel even more loved I will. My mother and I had a chilled day, which was perfect after a busy day in London. Also, how adorable, Archie and Syd wrote a card to match mine.
This week is seeing all things ‘go go go’ with a few different projects, I will share more very soon but I am currently decorating my office, yes, thanks to my parents I have my own office.
I love all things decor and stationary so decorating an office is most enjoyable. Again, I will share more soon but one thing I want to share today, is this canvas print with my favourite quote, ‘be the change I wish to see in the world’ – Gandhi. Which I am completely in love with, it is going to look perfect in my office, I just need to find a frame. Anyway, if you would like a print of your own visit Photowall and until the end of April you can get 20% off using the code: NicolesJourneyCampaign2018
The last day I will journal here, was a lovely one, it was spent visiting my great-grandmother, and like I always say when I mention her, she never fails to brighten my day. It has been her birthday, International Woman’s Day and Mothers Day, since I last saw her and each day I feel beyond inspired by her. She is the definition of strength, inspiration and I guess, woman.
My mother, aunty, grandmother and I all piled into the car and made our way to see her. We caught up and went out for lunch, how lucky am I to spend a day with four generations of wonderful ladies?! Anyway, the day was tiring, probably more so for me than her! I came home exhausted, got into bed and caught up on Jane the Virgin, which I am still a huge fan of.
I hope you have enjoyed reading this little journal style post, tell me, what is your favourite quote?
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Eighteen months ago, I sat on the train on my way to my first Time to Change young champions training. I was a complete mixture of nerves and excitement, not knowing how my life was about to change.
I was one, amongst eighty young people, each as passionate, each truly inspiring and also each about to change and grow in ways we never could have imagined. Continue reading “Time to Change Young Champion.”
On the 11th of March, each year, I write some sort of ‘reflection’ post, I do this for myself, it helps. It helps me to look back at the date I went into hospital, not solely out of strength and progress but out of feelings, that even now, I find difficult to address. Perhaps out of pain and upset but also out of fear, fear of what others will think.
In previous years, my writing has only spoke of the good, the feeling of achievement and pride but this post is going to be a little different. As time goes on, I become stronger and as I am sure you know, writing, talking and sharing is also something that helps. This is where I am at right now.
I know it may seem by being a mental health blogger and campaigner, often sharing my experiences of an eating disorder with others, that I have come to peace with my past, my mind and for the post part, I have, but some days, it still hurts. After reading many posts during eating disorder awareness week and sharing feelings of upsetting content with others, I do talk about moments I find upsetting in this post. Continue reading “I am not there, I am here.”
I was going to call this a recipe but I do not feel two ingredients and a few very simple steps counts as a recipe.
Anyway, as you can probably tell by my very ahead thinking, I am most excited for Easter. Easter is undoubtedly my favourite time of the year and so, here I am, as always, in the Spring like, bunting filled and oh so colourful spirit already, even if there is snow on the ground. See below for how I created these.
This month favourites sees all things from my new travel cup to a country pub, it is the little things like these that make a difference, not only to me but to the planet too. I have tried my best to ensure each of the products mentioned is gluten free and vegan but please always double check.
For Eating Disorder Awareness Week 2018, I wanted to create a series of posts that shared experiences of awareness, support and effects of the media. Whilst doing this I wanted to ensure the posts were far from triggering or stigmatising, by sticking to the mental health media charter and B-eat guidelines. Together, I believe the series of three posts are powerful without being harmful or reinforcing the stereotypes and misconceptions that we will unfortunately see this week.
For the third post I asked each contributor two questions on the topic of the media and myths.