Step by step, breath by breath.

As hard as it was this afternoon I decided to read over my ‘A Healthier Christmas’ post, take my own advice and do something to try and help my mind. I took myself away from the worries, wrapped up warm, put on my walking boots and headed into the woods, along with my mother and Archie to. I must admit I have been a little off the last couple of weeks and well, the promises I made to myself have already drifted slightly away but I am working on turning things around, step by step, breath by breath.

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Yet again I owe so much to my camera and my beautiful surroundings, forever reminding me how to be present. Today I noticed such bright yellow colours, although Autumn is starting to disappear, the fresh yellows and bright blue sky seemed clearer than ever. The sun was very low and almost completely set by four o’clock, another friendly reminder to make the most of days like this.

Instead of questioning why I feel the way I do, constantly looking for answers I think I shall try and let it be, be aware yet not try to change them, I guess be more mindful and present. Archie makes it all seem so easy, playing in the leaves and of course having a rest in the one muddy puddle he can find.

I hope you are well and having a lovely week,

Nicole

A Healthier Christmas.

And by the title I do not mean eat your sprouts. This might seem a little early but after already noticing a rise in my anxiety I felt the need for this post which I shall be reading over and over again..

I spent far too many Christmas’s with an eating disorder, each one as difficult as the other. Looking back at photographs of festive days out, Christmas baking and family gatherings I am not filled with happy memories nor the joy that is portrayed on my face, instead I am reminded of the mental torture I was living in. It fills me with sadness that those days were taken from me, and even more so that the little girl who used to enjoy all things Christmassy is left, even now, slightly fearing it.

I am not ashamed to say, a part of me still doubts my ability to cope with the pressure and stress that Christmas seems to bring me. I guess, after it being one of the most anxiety and eating disorder behaviour provoking times of the year it is going to leave me a little fearful but why? It is just one day. Continue reading “A Healthier Christmas.”

All things sweet.

It’s the beginning of the cosy months and with that the months to snuggle up with a cup of tea and something to dunk, without starting a debate on whether you’re a dunker or not I will get straight to it. This post is going to be filled with all things sweet, perfect for the start of the festivities, don’t you agree? Sharing with you a selection of my gluten-free and perfectly vegan chocolate treats! Santa I do hope your reading, (hint hint).. Continue reading “All things sweet.”

A touch of Autumn.

Isn’t it wonderful how over a couple of weeks a place can change so much? Nature never does fail to amaze me. This week Archie and I have been enjoying the crisp orange leaves, the low sun, shinning brightly through the trees and all of natures wonders hidden within the woodlands. Exploring this time of year fills me with happiness, places filled with colour, the gentle noises of leaves falling and Archie rustling from a far.

When looking back at the photographs I have taken, I cannot help notice how much my observation has improved. How being present and in the moment has opened my eyes to the beauty that surrounds me. With my mindfulness and meditation practice still going well, it is nice to be able to see the changes it is making. One of many changes, being more observant especially when it comes to nature and small details. I find myself feeling very grateful for this change, grateful that I am able to see more, appreciate more, leaving me feel more whole and at peace. I don’t know if this makes sense to anybody but me but I felt the need to share.

Sharing with you a few of my photographs and wishing you a peaceful evening,

Nicole

Operation Christmas Child.

The festive season is quickly approaching and with it comes the time tScreen Shot 2017-04-17 at 10.44.28o give back, giving to those who are less fortunate. The simplest of things can make a huge difference, if you are in anyway able make a difference to someone no matter how small please do.

Operation Christmas Child is something I have been brought up doing, each year at school, now becoming a yearly occurrence. At the beginning of November I send a shoe-box of little things in the hope they reach a child somewhere and make them feel loved, happy and well, how every child should feel.

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